I've been waiting for close to 2 months now. But still there is no reply. The wait is agonizing.
Honestly, this whole Bank Negara experience has been very helpful and so far I feel it has been not so much about the scholarship but about personal development. I learned a lot during the interview process as well as meeting quite a few cool friends which i would never have had a chance to meet. Undeniably getting the scholarship would be awesome but I told myself long ago not to expect anything simply because I don't want to get disappointed. But just recently there was this rumor i heard that one of the guys from the interviews had got the call. ( means we people who did not get the call were rejected )
I felt something - a tinge of sadness and disappointment. And i started wondering whether I was who i thought and said I was. I always thought i could handle it well and be able to move on stronger without looking back at what might have been because what God has in store for me is way better.
But as it turns out I'm not there yet. Maybe I need to learn to deal with disappointment more and what better way to learn that experience it.
But I found out that it wasn't as we made it out to be.. The guy got the call because Bank negara needed to clarify some details. o.O
Anyway, the wait continues. I shall learn to be more patient. No matter what the outcome, i will do my best to accept it and hopefully this time I can handle it.
3 comments:
dun worry tim, i understand how u feel. =)
although we r telling ourselves not to have s0 much hope on s0mthin. but.... u noe la.=)
anyway, dunit to be so stress because of this. smile =)))
Tim... keep your fingers crossed and do pray hard! You will get it. =)
There's nothing wrong with hoping. And there's nothing wrong with feeling disappointed.
There's no way that you could aim for the day when you receive bad news and feel nothing at all. It is only human to hope, and only human to feel disappointed.
What is bad is when you allow that one disappointment to overcome you and you lose hope in everything else, or that disappointment makes you wary of putting your hope in anything ever again. Then, that is not good.
Allow yourself to feel disappointed (if it's bad news la) and allow yourself time to get over it. As long as in the end, you DO come out of it, then just allow yourself to be human :)
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