Salty

What now?

2011-08-02T10:00:00.000-07:00

If i had the power to change the world... oh imagine the wrongs i would make right... busy
If i could 'fix' the wrongs in people and have them see what i see... i'd probably change everyone..

But it ain't my right... and gosh would it be a boring world to live in if everyone thinks like me...

I think I've learned to accept that.. but sometimes it feels helpless... staring from afar.. what then can i do? a question i need to find an answer to...

BERSIH 2.5

2011-07-11T01:36:00.000-07:00

Ladies and gentlemen.. this post is not to express my views on the recent rally in KL.. I have already over-indulged myself on fb and i am going to stop...

I think i was perfectly fine with everyone having their own opinions about the thing... then fb gets flooded with very shallow comments by people who have no idea what they are talking about... that infuriates me a lot... what is worse is when you know who these people are and all you think is.. huh?? this guy??

people who had ZERO interest in your own campus elections are suddenly super interested in general elections... i'm not even going to mention their knowledge level about our current system... let alone how they can be experts and claim that these are the measures needed for clean elections... I really have no comment for those who don't even know some of the claims made by bersih but yet have bersih pic badges in their profile...

People expect the best from the government... i expect bearable mistakes.. but yet the government fails on both accounts... But let me pose a question ... what do we expect from ourselves?? should we not expect any less?? if we demand the government to clean up should we not have cleaned up ourselves first? what major hypocrites we would be...

One of the most common things you see on fb statuses is pointing out how the government has wasted billions of taxpayers money on ridiculous stuff and expanding their own pockets... how true... but i've also seen jpa scholars and PTPTN loan takers waste these very same resources on 300 dollar watches, iphones and lcd televisions.. I'm not kidding... i wish i were about the television... well, we're not very different are we...

One may say.. nope.. i don't do that... or my parents pay my expenses... but let me take it one step further... for those studying in public universities... do you not know that your fees have been subsidized substantially by taxpayer's money? you could almost call it a scholarship... let me give you figures.. i'm paying roughly RM5000 for my 4 years here in UM for a RM60000 course my international student friends have to pay.... Now ask yourself this... ever skipped a class? ever slept in a class? we all can be honest with ourselves.. especially those uni courses like Hubungan Etnik and TITAS... now again imagine what you were doing instead of being in that class... sleeping in your room? shopping in mid-valley?? now don't tell me its not the same as what the government is doing because that is double-standard...

What i'm trying to get at is that we should all take a deep look at ourselves and think.. are we hypocrites? let's face it.. we don't expect the government to change.. if it were to change, we expect new people to rise up... but things aren't going to change for the better if the new people we so hope for comes from a pool of people with this attitude...

Whatever the implications of this rally.. let's clean ourselves up first alright? bersih 2.5 in operation...

purging the emo in me...

2011-06-29T07:17:00.000-07:00

Ladies and gentlemen... I officially announce to you... that I am a firm believer in Murphy's law...
Anything that can go wrong WILL and MOST SURELY go wrong....

In fact some things which you never thought could go wrong will also go wrong... It is after all a flawed world we live in. The motivation behind this blog post is just to get all this pent up frustration and disappointment out of my system... my facebook has been clogged up with emo-fied messages and i don't think its good...

I just don't understand it... I've slogged for 2 semesters.. so tired at times i just wanted to break down.. at times the only things keeping me going were the god-sent friends who supported me.. and just looking forward to a long deserved break from the craziness in UM...

And now even that is going to be taken from me?? What?? 4 months holiday now reduced to approximately a month spread out intermittently?? Little by little my holidays were sliced away.. 2 weeks, 1 week, another week.. but now 1 month!!
At first i was just angry... telling myself i'm not going through with it... but then i realise.. i can't run away at all... i'm trapped... there is no choice.. well congratulations.. you have broken my willpower... you have managed to beat me down to submission despite my defiance... you happy now??

People advise me to look at it positively.. be open minded about it.. and its true.. i should.. and i usually am... but i'm just so tired of it... i've been open minded for the past 2 semesters... telling myself its a learning experience... its good training... it will help me later on in life... just a while longer....
But its been that way for ages... but you know what? there is no little while longer is there? there is no guarantee that it will end here.. in fact it was supposed to end ages ago..

So what now? I really don't know..

I guess God has a plan... and that whatever happens.. no matter how it knocks my spirit down... when i look back i will see a different picture.... Now i see it may take many years for that to happen... For now i just don't want to be defeated...

I am a Jonah

2011-06-17T11:28:00.000-07:00

Hmmm.. was reading me bible the other day and i thought it would be fun to read the famous sunday school story of Jonah again....
The story seemed funnier than i last remembered it. haha..
Just for the sake of it.. This is how the story goes...
A long long time ago... cheh.. so dramatic..

there was this guy la.. his name was Jonah..
see he was this prophet who lived sometime in the old testament.. ( a prophet is someone who is God's messenger) Now Jonah was living his own mundane life in the city when one day God tells him to get up and go to the city of Nineveh (henceforth known as 9veh XD) to deliver a message of doom!

Wait! Wha??! Message of Doom?? In the bible? yup that's right.. message of doom. See 9veh was this great big city.. and like most great big cities.. they are greatly and BIGLY (is that a word? ) corrupted... in other words.. schmeevil.... yes.. evil....
What God wanted Jonah to do.. was for him to waltz up to the hostile citizens of this great big schmeevil city.. alone... and tell them that God was going to destroy them if they did not turn from their schmeevil ways... keywords... evil,alone... definitely not winning the most desirable task award i would say..

So what does Jonah do?? He's hilarious... he runs in the direct OPPOSITE direction... no kidding... haha.. firstly.. literally the opposite direction haha... secondly, trying to run away from God .. like hello? not possible o.O

so he goes on this boat from Joppa heading towards Tarshish... when God sends a storm in their way.. Now the boat was caught in this ferocious storm and all the sailors were like frantically throwing their cargo to make the ship lighter ... what was our dear hero doing?? sleeping =.=" well.. the captain woke him up later of course...

now the crew kinda sensed the divine nature of the storm and believed it was because somebody had done something to anger God... so they threw lots and obviously Jonah was pointed out... hence ensued some sort of interrogation... and Jonah admitted everything... so the captain asked him...

"What should we do to you to make the sea calm down for us?"
"Pick me up and throw me into the sea," jawab Si Jonah
"“and it will become calm. I know that it is my fault that this great storm has come upon you."

But the Crew... so kind hearted... kinda ignored him and continued their efforts to survive.. trying to row back to shore... imagine that... if it were me ar... you asked for it isn't it?? wish granted...
*fiiiuuuuu booomm*splash* Sayonara....
But in the end.. the crew decided.. there is no other way la.. so they reluctantly threw him off into the sea.. all the while praying for forgiveness... such nice people... ironically Jonah is the prophet...
and sure enough.. the storm stops...

Now here comes the interesting part... God sends a Great Fish to swallow Jonah up...(No, it isn't a whale like the kiddy book pictures suggest...) and he stays in the belly of the beast for 3 days and 3 nights... @.@ Wha??!! yup thats right... God saves Jonah by the most outrageous of methods... not only that... he gets vomitted out on dry land too!! Hard to believe? I'll get to that later...

Anyhu.. Jonah gets the picture... he can't run.. he probably can't hide either... so he gets to doing the task assigned... Goes up to the great big 9veh and delivers the unwanted news... To my surprise!!! wahh whole city... 1200000 citizens repent and turn from their ways!! Lesson 1 ..Never underestimate the power of God... Lesson 2.. who am I to judge people so quickly... o.O

Now, you'd think Si Jonah would be happy and continue his life right?? wrong... he merajuk O.o
Why??? coz his prediction of doom didn't happen... not too good on the reputation.. and he felt this 9veh ppl deserved to be punished. Instead God was going to let them go.

Wahh... I would have sent lightning down on this Jonah to kill him... but no.. God dealt with him gently... showing him through a plant which shaded him and died.. which is another story.. and i digress coz its getting too long...

As i was saying earlier... This story is from the bible... and i believe it to be absolutely true... Many may argue... how is it possible that this si Jonah can survive in this Fish's belly? Some believe that the fish part was purely metaphorical... representing something else... Either way, what convinces me of this story is Jonah himself.... his reactions.. so silly... so rebellious... so arrogant... so selfish... so brat-ish but ever so human... SO REAL...
Isn't this how all of us react to things? that would have been exactly what i would do... no matter how funny and ridiculous i find it... I AM JONAH.. oh gosh i can't stand myself..

But the greatest part of it all... how God was so patient with Jonah... led him back through and astounding U-turn.. not letting him get harmed throughout... and then at the end of it all... Jonah was merajuk-ing??
But God still dealt with him gently... all i can say is WOW... i want that so much... do you want that too??

***interesting fact***Jonah means dove***It is possible to live in the belly of a whale***

disinterested

2011-06-15T06:41:00.000-07:00

I thought time at home would cure me.. well it isn't working... i realised i've just been disinterested in everything... just not really me... crazy moody on the inside... guess i should change up the pace a little...

see.. lost interest in blogging already.. oh well...

Finding the way

2011-05-30T09:08:00.000-07:00

Have you ever felt a sudden sense of panic? Out of the blue.. when you think you're at the height of a point in your life.
I guess people would never have guessed... apparently i look calm and collected all the time.. someone who is in control and looks like he knows what he's doing...

But at that moment in time.. in the middle of blurry faces i just felt lost... suddenly i just felt how insignificant my life has been... and probably will be... doing things i dislike but do well... pleasing people around but end up exhausted and drained... too tired to even enjoy good company...

I know i've grown a lot. And its great to see how far i've come. But.. essentially i'm still the same person.. still insecure, still introverted.. someone who enjoys doing background work... living a simple but satisfying life.. away from the fast lane...
Maybe i just wanted to prove something... to who I'm beginning to wonder..

At the beginning i could still see the meaning in things.. but i seem to have lost sight of that... I just want to go back to the beginning... where the meaning is clear...

things have been confusing to say the least.. i don't know how to deal with it.. just have to wait on God's timing... i really hope i don't panic and act rashly... its been staring in my face 24/7

On another note.... people have pointed out and partly i've noticed... I'm a people pleaser.. and a workaholic.... i probably will die young...

skema from young..

2011-04-18T10:37:00.000-07:00

I feel like blogging about something happy today. Seems like my blog has been an emo dump of late. Anyway, i don't quite know what to blog about that is happy...

I noticed how i like to look back on past experiences.. thinking of all the things i used to do and comparing them somewhat to what i do now. What i can say about my childhood was it was pleasant. Rather uneventful actually.. something which was pointed out to me recently. But still, i would classify it as carefree and sheltered. What i mostly remember was cycling around, watching tv and playing with lego.

All the while, I have great parents who disciplined me early.. as a result i was kind of the guy who follows rules to the dot.So, i mostly stayed out of mischief and was probably a teacher's pet @.@
Didn't quite understand what i was doing in school until about standard 3 which was when i started to take my studies a little more seriously.

I think that early upbringing was vital in shaping who i am now. Flash forward.. I'm still someone who follows rules quite religiously. For example, I still wear my matric card around campus.. I'm still me. There are changes... there are improvements as well. But fundamentally I'm still that little boy who wandered the hallways of SKTRJ with his hair uncombed. In a way I'm glad I'm still nerdy.. simple and optimistic. HAHA..

I don't really know the point of this post.. but I'm excited to see how my now will affect what I am to be... I have hopes and dreams and a general idea of who i want to be. I foresee excitement soon as my first year in UM draws to a close and as the events of my life unfold i will observe the shaping of myself. No matter what though I'll still bet my money on being nerdy haha.

Until i have better things to blog about...

A little confession, A big thanks..

2011-03-26T11:42:00.000-07:00

Somehow i always have the urge to change people. I feel like walking right up to them and tell them... "this is how you should live your life."
All this while i had the notion that it was always for their own good. I was helping them. I have the best intentions. But the more i think about it... its a very selfish thing to do. Advising then demanding and almost expecting that they change. Such arrogance i must say.

But that's just not how life works isn't it?
I look in the mirror and I am ashamed. Maybe some part of me needs to feel like i'm helping out in a noble way. Selfishness. Just to feed my own emotional insecurities.

I really don't think it started off this way. But i guess somewhere along the lines.. the true intentions got blurred out. It's sad that it got this way. But I'm glad i came to my senses. After all.. a clear conscience is the best mattress.

Ahah.. now that that is out of my system, just wanted to acknowledge and thank God for helping me through a period of unbelievable madness. Minggu KEBATIM, MPD 2 phases, Easter, and APK...
For the first time in my life i could foresee days which i knew very well would break my spirit. Days shrouded with blackness so much so that i didn't want to face it. Almost a month long without break or a chance to just savor the completion of something. I didn't like it at all. I knew i would be stressed out.. i knew i would have insufficient sleep... i knew my studies will suffer... But mostly because i knew i would become somebody i didn't like... snappy, naggy, grumpy tim..
I even pre-warned close friends. But God was good.

He sent me angels to keep me going all throughout the time. Like sweet reminders and boosts of happiness and encouragement. I owe it to my friends and family XD

Seriously.. it was all i had to keep me from breaking down. And I'm really not kidding. There were times where i wanted to run out and break something. I was even entertaining thoughts of being knocked down so that i wouldn't have to face the days.
When i came home last week... i was close to tears... no exaggeration. God is just so so good.. Reminds me.. you don't tell God how big your problem is... you tell your problem how big God is...

God is awesome!

What's the verdict??

2011-02-16T05:40:00.000-08:00

I always knew I would return someday. I've always loved writing and facebook doesn't really cut it as an outlet for me.

The last time I posted, I was on the verge on entering the doorways of University Malaya and here I am now in the midst of my second semester. Oh how time flies.
Its been fun for the most part. The experiences have been draining but undoubtedly satisfying. Through it all I've grown to love my course and my course mates, my college and my collegians and University Malaya has been kind so far.

Like what many have said before, campus life will be the time you get a glimpse of the so-called real world as you trudge carefully out of the cocoon you've been so comfortable in. So what's the verdict? (Also the title of the upcoming PKV Easter play) What is this glimpse that i have seen?

The one thing that strikes me the most is how much hurt, pain and sadness there is in the world. The disappointments I've seen are real and are scarring. Scars that are obvious by how people live so defensively, cautiously, paranoid even. How they tenaciously guard themselves from feeling the same hurts. Some losing hope in hope itself.

Maybe I've been blessed. Whatever hardships I've faced so far are not as remotely close to what people have faced. Probably why my life's optimism is looked upon with skeptical eyes. At times, I'm just left speechless. It's just sad when people just stop hoping for something better.

A stark contrast to how my life has been before is how friendship is treated like a one chance thing. You are my friend up until the point you wrong me. So fragile these friendships are. The picture I had previously was by no means all rosy and pleasant. But friendship was something you fought for, something you would scale the highest mountains for just a chance at patching up. It seems now that people would much rather throw it all away to save the heartache.

Sometimes, the more i think of it, the more depressing it is. But it just goes to show how much the world needs God. How much they are missing the message of forgiveness and love. I really hope that i can somehow show this to them. Things never seem right until you put God in the picture. Only then, you see the perfect picture.

Beginnings and Endings

2010-07-02T06:49:00.000-07:00

The following few days will be a momentous day for many of us. Whether we like it or not, it marks the beginning of a new chapter in life - the passageway to adulthood. On the 4th of July, I will be leaving for UM, my dad's alma mater to pursue a degree in Biomedical Engineering. I'm excited yet I'm nervous all at the same time. Deep inside there is a sense of fear and reluctance as well. I guess its because there are things in my life which will only continue to exists in my life as memories.

Things I will miss...

Family

Mom and dad. I really thank God for putting such great people in my life. I just wouldn't be me without
them. My Sis. Though she already 'left the nest', I guess I'll continue to miss her more. Kit. Having shared so much for so long, life is definitely going to be missing something now.

Friends

So many in this category. LOL I guess it isn't fair to mention people just because there are so many of you who have truly been great friends in every sense. I will definitely miss the outings.. the company. My only regret is not having spent more time knowing that we won't see much of each other in the near future. Really hope we do get to meet up from time to time no matter how far apart we are.

School

In a weird sense, i guess i'll miss it. Teachers and all.

Home

This is just going to feel like a really long camp.

In a time like this.. I remember something..

Ecclesiastes 3

A Time for Everything

¹ For everything there is a season,
      a time for every activity under heaven.
² A time to be born and a time to die.
      A time to plant and a time to harvest.
³ A time to kill and a time to heal.
      A time to tear down and a time to build up.
⁴ A time to cry and a time to laugh.
      A time to grieve and a time to dance.
⁵ A time to scatter stones and a time to gather stones.
      A time to embrace and a time to turn away.
⁶ A time to search and a time to quit searching.
      A time to keep and a time to throw away.
⁷ A time to tear and a time to mend.
      A time to be quiet and a time to speak.
⁸ A time to love and a time to hate.
      A time for war and a time for peace.

I guess its time to grow up =)

I'll keep these things close to my heart no matter what.
To all my friends, no matter where you are... I really hope you guys will... (at the risk of sounding corny) reach for the stars... Never forget the things that matter... There will always be a place for you in my heart.

Memories to cherish

2010-06-13T05:49:00.000-07:00

Iskandarians finally had our outing!!! yay =)

It was kinda rushed... it was last minute... but it went very very well =)

PICNIC + BOWLING + LUNCH + BADMINTON

I really have to thank mc and xy for taking the initiative to plan this thing. I really really appreciate their effort!! Believe me it isn't easy. Basic prerequisites include patience, patience and more patience. I don't have much of that i suppose.

Anyway, i tumpang-ed xy that day and we were early hahha.. very early.. mc was late lol. We found a nice spot and set up. One by one they came.. mc, mandy, kc and then the 'injured' devar. Then was makan time =) sandwiches salad jelly ... not bad huh? All of the sudden i found myself surrounded by childish kids playing with a water gun -_-"

At abt 11 when it started to get hot we went to jusco!! Met up with wei liang, Siva and Kumar for some bowling.. Very happy i could manage a 3 digit score =) but still only placed 3rd haha... they were lucky today.. siva and mc... can't believe it haha...

After lunch it was time for badminton... another platform for Siva to show off... pity Devar the most... even wei liang got a smash on the forehead... haha..

Really had a good time last thursday. Just good times in good company. I thank God that we had this chance to have fun because who knows when we will be meeting each other again.I really want to take this opportunity to wish all my friends from Iskandar all the best =) I really treasure the moments. In one way or another you guys have influenced me to be who i am today. And so i am forever indebted to you guys =) Love all of you !!

BTW, happy birthday to mc tomorrow =)
20 already, pls start acting it hahhaha have a good one God bless

Give it time

2010-05-27T09:14:00.000-07:00

AND THE WAIT IS OVER!!!
Oh well, i didn't get it. The world isn't going to end. It would have been nice but i guess God has better plans.

Just wanted to update my blog.. since my last post was about the wait... Anyway, i always believe that God allows things to happen for a reason. Reminds me of a song from Joseph the Dreamer..

You Know Better Than I

" You know better than i,
You know the way,
I've let go my need to know why,
I'll take what answers you supply,
For you know better than I."

Note to self: Look back and see God's great plans in action.

The Wait

2010-05-22T06:39:00.000-07:00

I've been waiting for close to 2 months now. But still there is no reply. The wait is agonizing.

Honestly, this whole Bank Negara experience has been very helpful and so far I feel it has been not so much about the scholarship but about personal development. I learned a lot during the interview process as well as meeting quite a few cool friends which i would never have had a chance to meet. Undeniably getting the scholarship would be awesome but I told myself long ago not to expect anything simply because I don't want to get disappointed. But just recently there was this rumor i heard that one of the guys from the interviews had got the call. ( means we people who did not get the call were rejected )

I felt something - a tinge of sadness and disappointment. And i started wondering whether I was who i thought and said I was. I always thought i could handle it well and be able to move on stronger without looking back at what might have been because what God has in store for me is way better.

But as it turns out I'm not there yet. Maybe I need to learn to deal with disappointment more and what better way to learn that experience it.

But I found out that it wasn't as we made it out to be.. The guy got the call because Bank negara needed to clarify some details. o.O

Anyway, the wait continues. I shall learn to be more patient. No matter what the outcome, i will do my best to accept it and hopefully this time I can handle it.

Random..

2010-04-24T03:50:00.000-07:00

My sis came home today.... Look what she brought home...

My parents say her luggage multiplied O.o

La Vie En Rose

2010-04-12T09:01:00.000-07:00

La Vie En Rose - Life in rosy hues

I was just listening to this song called La vie en rose and i was reminded of how moving music can be. Literally, it means life through pink-coloured glasses or life in pink. But my favourite translation would be life in rosy hues. So i thought I'd do some music appreciation.

I close my eyes and listen.

The music starts. I hear the sounds of the piano. Like water streaming - quick yet gentle and subtle. It sets my mind at ease. Like the slow flow of a river... my soul is at rest. And then, seamlessly the beautiful melody of the trumpet fills the air. Note by note with conviction but without imposing. Somehow i find myself along the sidewalk of a brick road. Just watching. Watching as the night sky is filled with a majestic crimson hue in splashes - almost like a painting. I stand there watching. Lovebirds hand in hand walking along the dusty pavement. He puts his arm around her and looks at her as though she were the only thing that mattered. In that brief moment, a fragment in time... he realizes that his world revolves around her. Her gentle eyes, windows to her soul... reveals the same things. Like kids, they laughed and giggled, whisper sweet nothings.

*They start to dance. Clumsy but elegant. With beautiful movement they swayed in unison all the while laughing and gazing into each other's eyes - like no one was watching. The song - words heartfelt sung like a love poem while no one was listening. Surely they were in love. Taking that leap of trust and faith like they've never been hurt. They were free like birds. No one to tell them how to live or who to live for. Just together like heaven on Earth.*

Smiling, they finally settled on a wooden bench exhausted but elated. They huddle close as she leans her head on his shoulders. They gaze into the crimson sky - trying to crystallize this moment in their memory forever. They watched the sky together until the sun set beyond the endless horizon.

La vie en rose.

-song ends-

Somehow i feel like i should spend some time writing a song =)

* * I rephrased Mark Twain

Lyrics | Louis Armstrong lyrics - La Vie En Rose lyrics

Long Long Interview = Long Long Post

2010-03-30T07:56:00.000-07:00

How should you react when you get called up for an interview???

i dunno... who said i was going to tell you anyway =)

Anyway, i received a call up on Thursday to go for Bank Negara Scholarship interviews. Apparently they had sent an e-mail to me and i was supposed to reply them. So i casually opened up my mail which is usually filled with facebook updates, and sure enough it was there in my deleted messages - dated the previous Tuesday. I shuddered to think of what would have happened if they hadn't called me.

I didn't know what to expect since the interview letter stated 7.30 am to 6.00 pm @.@ So i just did some research on Bank Negara ( an interesting read actually, finally understood some economic things i heard of before) and read an article about going through interviews i had pulled out of The Star a week before. Its really strange and amazing how God works. I saw the article, thought 'hey, this is interesting!', pulled it out and put it on the table. A week later, WOW!! A need fulfilled.

I woke up at about 5.00 am that Monday. Took a bath, had light breakfast and headed to Lanai Kijang where the interviews are held. When i reached there, i had a plan. I'd make friends, be friendly and have a good time. But the moment i reached the lobby, a wave of coldness took over me. I just sat there in the lobby with the others. Too frozen to do anything. I was so nervous and i don't know why. So i just said a silent prayer and tried to mix around. By the grace of God I was a bit more warmed up during breakfast and soon we were being briefed. We were told that out of the 2600 applicants only 37 of us were shortlisted!!! Wow, i couldn't help but feel a bit proud =)

The first stage, essay writing. 1 hour 2 essays 1 english 1 malay. Honestly, i wrote nonsense. 1 hour for 1 is not enough for me let alone 2. I struggled with the bm essay a lot not because i was rusty but because i just couldn't think of any points, well not in that time frame. So i just wrote whatever that popped up in my empty mind and pray it made sense lol. I really hope this part does not weigh much XD

Immediately after that i was sent to have my 3 to 1 interview since i was first in the orange group list. And you know what?? I loved my interview. It was nice since the 3 interviewers were really friendly and nice. It was more like a chit chat session i guess =) Come to think of it, i felt that the whole Bank Negara staff were really friendly. It wasn't that kind of put-on-fake-smile that you see everywhere but i really felt genuine warmth.

Next up for me was individual presentation where they would give us a case study to present. The case was 'Working at home through the internet' and i opposed it. I did this in MUET before but anyhow i was still rushed and i didn't really have time to compose my thoughts. As a result i think my presentation was a bit clumsy and cluttered. After that, i was bombarded with difficult and tricky questions and i was able to answer all of them but i wouldn't know how well i answered them lol. Overall i think i did ok here but it isn't a good sign when one of your points get questioned =)

After that i was pretty free. If only i knew i would have brought a book. I waited with my team mates as there was only the group presentation left. But some of my mates had not finished their interviews yet - pity them. Group presentation was the most challenging part of all. They gave us this case study of us being a SMCT (Special Mission Critical Team) of Sunrise Construction Sdn. Bhd. whereby we were supposed to propose several management initiatives to the company during the current economic crisis. Our list of to do's

Take up specific roles and explain our job (project manager etc.)
Present our ideas to the management
Suggest problems that may arise and how to solve it.

Problem was we had 20 minutes to prepare while they watched us @.@ and... after reading the really long question twice... i was still blur... I didn't dare open my mouth. But somehow we managed. After our presentation, they fired us with questions and gosh some of them just made me freeze because i just didn't know how to answer them. But i guess we did well in the sense we covered up for each other well. =) Love my team yeah!!

So that was it. The entire interview process. Just wanted to thank everyone for their well wishes, prayers and concern. Really helped!! I omitted tonnes of details because i know this is a really long post and its so dry... Anyways, until next time. Praise the Lord!!

Sweet... Bitter.. Sweet

2010-03-18T08:56:00.000-07:00

Today was fun. Finally had an Iskandar gathering =) Woots!! The planned 3 day 2 night trip was a failure... but today's outing was good - 8 came (pretty late) .
Did I tell anybody how i hate planning outings?? Well, i do. The bigger the group, the worse. Its just so hard to get people. Sometimes it just gets discouraging. But hey, people have their own reasons don't they. That's why 8 was a great number for me =)

Anyway, Alice in Wonderland wasn't what i expected. It was pretty cool in parts but i wish they'd show more of the characters which to me was what made it interesting. I could vaguely remember the cartoon but i really don't remember much about mad hatter. We were late for the movie (Malaysian rubber time) =P But i don't think we missed that much.

After lunch and after visiting some friends... we went BOWLING!!
Well it was funny hahha. Really took my mind off things. It reminded me of why i wanted to meet up with these guys in the first place. There's really nothing better than having fun with good friends. It was an off day for me in bowling... cheh... asyik senget ... but still respectable. Devar was REALLY lucky today... 2 strikes??? Left siva fuming. Wei Liang did well.. his first time haha... well xin yi... what can i say... more power!!

After that was weird... meichern went missing.. literally. We assumed she went back so we had an ice cream and went home ;P sorry

On another note, i realized something today. Sometimes, we're just so caught up in things, we forget to be a good friend. We expect so much of others but yet we don't put in the same amount ourselves. Do unto others what you want others to do unto you.. right? But instead we get all critical and we judge too quickly before we even think through why someone reacts a certain way. I felt disappointed in myself today... i wasn't sensitive enough. I regret acting too quickly and i feel i have let someone down. I was too eager to comfort my own ego that i wrecked things up. I guess i'm just not there yet. haiz.. in time i hope i will.

Anyway, a shoutout to one of my best-est buddies, nothing beats sitting in the same class for 11 years.. A very Blessed 20th birthday... hgnis rednivlad lol... hope you see this after you completed your assignments XP.

It just seems life is a series of ups and downs... bittersweet... Just have to take it all in.

(I realized i'm back to long posts... but hey at least its more regular right?)

You don't miss the water til the well runs dry

2010-03-13T03:31:00.000-08:00

I was watching The Book of Eli a few hours back, and something struck a chord with me. Regarding the old days ( its set in the future so old days means now ),
Eli said,

"People threw away things we would fight for now. They didn't know what was really precious."

-well it went something like that-

I was just thinking. How true. People just don't know how to appreciate things when they have it. A few songs come to mind.

Counting Crows - They Paved Paradise
Craig David - You Don't Miss Your Water (Til The Well Runs Dry)

Just something to we should all think about.

For God's glory

2010-02-27T05:44:00.000-08:00

The Lord has been good to me.

3 a 1 a-

That's pretty good right??

lol, my only regret is that the a- was bio. Of all things why bio!!!! I was just telling my mom, if it were anything it would be my chemistry or PA. i was pretty confident of maths and bio.
For the record, bio paper was pretty easy and straight forward. Couldn't believe my eyes when my paper 2 bio was a b+. Oh well, easy papers are never good news. But God is great. God probably didn't want me to get cocky or let pride slip in. My results are fine with me =)

Some of my friends did well. Others didn't. Some though i thought they had reasonably good results were obviously disappointed. But I really do hope they will always take their results in proper perspective. For me form 6 was a time of learning - finding who i am and really building relationships with friends. So no matter how good or bad a result i got, i will always remember form 6 for the times we had. Iskandar was a fantastic class =) and i really thank each and everyone of them for accepting me and well... bullying me =P . Doesn't mean they should though.
It probably got me more comfortable with myself and just let loose a little bit =) Well it wasn't just friendships in class but i really enjoyed all my experiences there. I am visibly more mature than when i was in form 5. Well, i like to think so =P

It feels like I'm closing another chapter in my life, but i know another is just beginning.
Well just a quote i remember from somewhere i don't remember =) I hope it will encourage you guys as it did me.

"In the end, everything will be alright. If it isn't, then it isn't the end."

A prayer to God

2010-02-21T05:05:00.000-08:00

STPM results out this Thursday. Should i be excited? scared? I dunno.

Well, i have my hopes. I won't lie. I always try my best and aim for the best. But the danger in that is i might get disappointed. But that doesn't mean i shouldn't hope right?

Oh well, Father i pray for peace - that no matter what i will be able to accept my results. Father, whatever happens, let it be for your glory. Lord, keep me safe from pride and keep me humble. I want to thank You for everything. Lord, about the applications, show me what you have planned for me. Grant me wisdom to choose. In whatever way you lead me, Father i thank you that you will be with me.

Amen. =)

I feel better now

The Dreaded Question

2010-02-17T07:17:00.000-08:00

Every time i meet someone, i dread the question.

"Hey, so you finished your stpm right?? What you doing now??"

"Not working??? Oh i see."

" So what course you intend to apply for?? What??!! Still not sure????", *glares disapprovingly*

Oh well. That's how most conversations generally go. I would say its kinda impossible to avoid it. How i wish they would just give me a break. Is it so hard to accept that some people just aren't sure what they want to do for a living yet? I don't want to regret this decision i'm making so why not take a little more time?? Nothing wrong with that right? I guess i just have to pray a little harder for directions. =)

Well just wanted to share some lyrics of a song. well just the 1st verse and the pre-chorus. Very meaningful.

Casting Crowns
Who Am I lyrics

Who am I?
That the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name,
Would care to feel my hurt.
Who am I?
That the bright and morning star,
Would choose to light the way,
For my ever wondering heart.

Not because of who I am.
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done.
But because of who you are.
-------------------------

Thank you. =)

Where we are now

2010-01-08T02:24:00.000-08:00

"I do not want the peace that passeth understanding. I want the understanding which bringeth peace."

-Helen Keller-

When i was in primary school, things seemed great. Malaysia was united. Well that's what the textbooks said. And i believed it wholeheartedly. Really. But as my understanding progressed, Malaysian life didn't seem to fit the description. Sure we are better off than some but we sure leave a lot to be desired. Things just were not where it should be. Nope the textbooks were definitely wrong about this one. So much for OneMalaysia.

Malaysia is my home. It's our home. And it really pains me when we fight over such petty issues. Use of a word??? What??!! Come on... Do we really have to make it such a big fuss??

I believe a lot of this stems from the lack of understanding between us Malaysians. Why is that so?? How do we gain that?? The government raves about how 'racial tolerance' is the key. Is it?

The free web dictionary defines tolerance as

1. The capacity for or the practice of recognizing and respecting the beliefs or practices of others

hmmm... sounds great.
But what usually comes to mind and what i believe most Malaysians understand is..

2. capacity to endure something, esp pain or hardship.

The fact is that this encourages Malaysians to think that

'others' = something which is bad and needs to be endured

hence, we have peace that passeth understanding. For the sake of peace we'll just tolerate these 'people' right?

But no. It isn't the way. OneMalaysia is a beautiful concept. But as it is it will forever remain as that - a concept. Most people scoff at the idea. Yes it may just seem like some political propaganda and it may be exactly that. But it doesn't matter. It's still something worth fighting for. Why not try to make it reality.

I believe it is mostly a personal thing. You can only understand if you want to understand. And that is where we start. One thing i'd like to see though, is BN taking the initiative and be truly one. No more UMNO, MCA, MIC etc . Just one party. Chuck aside tolerance for understanding. For how can the nation be one if the ruling party has so many division-like sub parties. Otherwise OneMalaysia would seem so hypocritical.

I pray that God will help us understand. =)

what if?

2009-12-22T18:32:00.000-08:00

Emotion can be a strong motivator. How else then can I produce 2 posts within a short time frame?? Whether good or bad , emotion is fuel for an out of sorts blogger in his feeble attempt to revive his blog. Definitely out of sorts
Amidst the storm raging in my mind, I'm reminded of a time when being carefree was an everyday thing. Waking up in the morning eager to start the next adventure. Adventure is out there!! (quoted from Up)
But over time, life deals you sucky cards and you just start to worry about everything. Friendships, school, life. But the funny thing is that these things didn't just appear as we got older. They have been there since our carefree days. Did we just wake up one day and thought... omg, what if??

what if my life isn't going anywhere??
what if i never get to see this person again?
what if tomorrow never comes?

But what if life never dealt those sucky cards?? would we just live like kids?? maybe along the way we just realised there are things close to our heart that we guard and keep. We realise and acknowledge life for what it is. In a way i'm glad. Carefree or not. Somehow i believe its better to feel than not to feel at all. Otherwise there would be no meaning.

Hurt but not defeated

2009-12-22T08:50:00.000-08:00

Something is up. I said something is up. Blog followers as of 31st July, ten. Blog followers as of 20th December, thirteen. Number of posts between 31st July and 20th December??

0.

Weird?? I say something is up.
Its been a long lay off. (as usual)
But today, i feel the urge to write. At this unearthly hour, i will myself to write. Why you ask?? Because words allow me express unspoken feelings bottled up and stashed away from sight for long periods of time. Feelings otherwise potentially explosive and combustible.
You know the expression good guys finish last?? well i discovered that it may just have some credibility. Forgive me for thinking i'm a good guy... but hey, i try. Beats not trying at all right?
But sometimes it can be discouraging when people take advantage of your predisposition. You question why try? when people don't appreciate it but instead they play it like a joke.

One thing's for sure.. it hurts... good guy, bad guy... no difference we bleed the same... so why expose yourself to rejection when being a bad guy seems to get you farther? Sure you get mistreated as well.. but well you kinda expect it..
That's a thought that has significance... you expect it...
hmmmm.. thinking it over... why should the 'good guys' expect good treatment???

Well they shouldn't. Being good and expecting something in return would mean ulterior motive.
Where does that put the good guy then?? not so good after all.. so technically they should expect harsh treatment...
Well it doesn't matter anyhow... It's been a timely reminder of what motivates me to be who i want to be.

Because He first loved me.

Hamster

2009-11-24T20:39:00.001-08:00

A little speck

2009-07-31T06:04:00.000-07:00

"It's about time isn't it??"
"Time for what??"
"Stop acting dumb.You know exactly what i mean and you know i know it."
"Okay, okay, you don't have to be so ... so ... never mind. Fine. I'll just do it. As long as you stop giving me that guilt-inducing look. Deal??"
"Deal!"
"Hmmmm, *twiddle* I think I'll just do it tomorrow. We are coming online tomorrow aren't we?"
"You don't want to do it do you?? It's okay, just let your blog rot away. Disappointing your 10 registered followers time and again. You know just as well as i do (of course) that someday they'll just stop checking for updates and it will all just fade into oblivion. Oooh i just spotted a cyber rat chewing at your page!! Oh well. It is what it is."
"*silence* *cracks knuckles and types..* "
"Title... "

And so, as you can see, that was a little conversation between me and well.... the other me. I know what you're thinking! Of course it's possible! It happened in my head, well sorta. (No, I'm not crazy.) The other me is talking in yellow. Look at it! Ain't it pretty??

Somehow i feel like my blog seems to sound more and more like a broken record. It always seems to start with "I'm sorry it's been so long since my last update....".
Well, not like it was on purpose. To be exact, i haven't really been in the blogging mood of the late. Ironically, there has been tonnes of stories to tell.

Life has been tiring if not anything. But it has certainly been rewarding this past few months. I'm done with mid year exams and in fact trials are up soon. ( i really should start revising now) I did well, i think. 3 A's and an A-. CGPA 3.92 (cheh wah bangganya!!) Really kicking myself about PA. I did close to nothing to prepare for it with the other papers taking so much of my time. (more like nothing at all) Somehow my second paper saved me from the shame i deserve. Nevertheless it was all down to God's grace and i really thank him for it.

Well, for the past few months its been kinda monotonous. Go to school... come back from school... do homework... watch tv (lots) ...sleep... erm... yup in that order for months. The whole experience was sapping and at times i wondered what i was doing. It was like swimming across still waters for hours and hours and when you look up to see where you are... and all you see is an endless body of water surronding you. But then came our Muet Plays!!! Muahahahaha I see an island at last!!!

Not surprisingly, i "volunteered" to be the director. So much for being my island. Imagine the work i had to do!! but then i thought, " hey, it's the last time i'd get to do something like this" and everything didn't seem so gloomy after that. The parody of King Lear, chosen over the everybody-is-doing-it Romeo and Juliet was a blast!! Practice was equally as fun with Iskandarians being the typical people we are, filled the corridors of the form 6 block with laughter.
The day came and we made a clean sweep of all the prizes!!! (ahem) ... well, almost. Best Performance, best performer and best director!!! weeeeeeeeeee!!! So fun. Did i ever tell you that winning is fun?? Well, not the whole point. But it's still fun =)
After that day, i was refreshed. I got off my island energised and ready to swim another thousand miles.

You know, sometimes, in life you feel so small. When you look up into the night sky, and see the beautiful stars. The sheer size of the vast galaxy hits you and you feel tiny, unimportant. After all, I'm just a little speck. But then, you stare a little more and you realise another fact. He cares for me all the same. Together, the two realisations form something even more amazing. He cares for me even though physically, I'm nothing but a speck. He cares for me enough to send me a little motivation when i'm going through what seems like a mundane routine (how insignificant but yet...) - reminding me of the purpose in my life. Gosh, that makes me feel great.

I thank Him because He cares and loves. ( we sure are lucky)

Growing

2009-04-04T06:23:00.000-07:00

If a blog could rot, mine would be long gone by now. Even as i type this now, i can hear my finger joints creaking... like an old rocking chair... its kinda eerie... Shows how long since i my last post huh? Well since its been so long i thought that it would be great to post something about my recent developments...

Its been say more than 2 months since i made a proper post and i guess i could say a lot has happened. For one, my monthly test is over and done with... phew... and you know what??? i gt all A's!!! yay... first time in my form 6 life!! doesn't really matter much though... its just a monthly test... wasn't really satisfied with how i did in bio.... lotsa things i still need to focus on.. but life has been good.. been having some fun times in form 6... just a few days ago, polis trafik had their station games and i had a blast... somehow i managed to play 'captain ball' even as a referee!! and we won 6-3. Couldn't resist ourselves. (Tiffany, Chee Kang and I)
Devar... you couldn't do anything about it.... haha... Well, that was really fun considering the last time i played it was in 2003.... but gosh was it tough to handle the event.... i literally lost my voice as it broke every time i tried to tell the crowd something... but it was cool anyhow...

You know, it has been more than half a year since i started form 6 and to be honest, I am really proud of myself. Looking back i realize how much i've grown as a person and it has been something i have been trying to do for a long time. Being quiet and timid all my life i guess i always wanted to be a little bolder and maybe be a lil more outgoing like my sis. And you know, i'm so glad i chose form 6 over JPA. I have absolutely no regrets. I truly believe that God led me to the right people at the right place and at the right time. I have come to know really wonderful people that i actually feel comfortable with and that was just what i needed. Somehow going to form 6 liberated me of all the images of what i should be and who i was that people expected me to be. I wouldn't blame them either. For a long time i thought of myself just as the quiet guy who didn't have much to offer. Somehow that image really stuck and it even made me believe that that was all i was. But now i feel more comfortable with myself and i'm having more fun than i ever had. Well all i can say is that i still have a long way to go... still learning to be all that God wants me to be. I really really thank God for my form 6 friend who have just been the best... tolerating my weird personality and stuff... As i said... form 6 ain't too bad after all.

Well... i haven't really changed that much. I am still the old me. The me that my friends from bukit mewah have come to know is still there. Maybe the packaging though has changed quite a bit.

Well, i guess i just wanted to share a bit about my form 6 experience and how thankful i am in all things. What i've learned is that u need not be who people want you to be. Life is too short to not be yourself. Well, To all those people just like me who like to fade into the comfort of the corners... its ok to come out and show your true self to the world.... and you know why?? ....because people love you all the same..

Tears, Idle Tears

2009-03-06T20:26:00.001-08:00

by Alfred, Lord Tennyson

Tears, idle tears, I know not what they mean,
Tears from the depth of some divine despair
Rise in the heart, and gather to the eyes,
In looking on the happy Autumn-fields,
And thinking of the days that are no more.

Fresh as the first beam glittering on a sail,
That brings our friends up from the underworld,
Sad as the last which reddens over one
That sinks with all we love below the verge ;
So sad, so fresh, the days that are no more.

Ah, sad and strange as in dark summer dawns
The earliest pipe of half-awakened birds
To dying ears, when unto dying eyes
The casement slowly grows a glimmering square ;
So sad, so strange, the days that are no more.

Dear as remembered kisses after death,
And sweet as those by hopeless fancy feigned
On lips that are for others ; deep as love,
Deep as first love, and wild with all regret ;
O Death in Life, the days that are no more.

Invictus

2009-02-22T04:22:00.000-08:00

OUT of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

William Ernest Henley - Ernest Hemmingway

Just thought it was really cool... so i posted it to keep my blog alive.. until i can really make a post myself... by the way, "Invictus" means unconquered in latin... so here it is... I am the master of my fate : the captain of my soul... though i don't quite agree with that... its cool all the same

The Curse has lifted

2009-01-09T19:01:00.000-08:00

The Curse... it has been fabled to have begun in the year 2000.. casting its dark shadow for 8 years over a pitiful mortal... But now... what was once a gloomy darkly lit sky... is now clearer as the hues of the glorious sun begin to filter through the moving clouds..

Have you not heard of The Curse?? The one so horrendous that it sucks years out of the life of its pitiable victims... The curse is none other than.... The Curse of Monitorship!!!!

Well, i guess that's enough of drama.. But it is indeed true... i have been LIBERATED!!! No more Mr. Monitor!! One cannot begin to imagine my relief!! And seriously.. i'm not exaggerating.. it IS a curse... one that has refused to let go of me for many years... but alas ... justice has prevailed...

Let me give you all a little lesson on the history of The Curse.. it came like a thief in the night ... carefully picking out the quiet 10 year old boy in the corner of the class as its chosen one... no one would expect the post of Assistant Monitor to be a curse... After all it was just a year long ordeal... however its hold on the chosen one grew stronger the very next year as the curse manifested itself again in the form of the Monitor post.. As the curse gradually established its power, the young boy figured something was up and started making counter measures ( begging friends not to vote) to combat what seemed to be a doomed destiny.. His efforts seemed to have altered his fate ... up until he was chosen again.. though this time as the treasurer....

As the boys life as a primary school student ended.. he looked forward to greener pastures in a different school... And all was well with him at the time... well, that is for about half a year... though he thought it was safe when he steered clear of any obligations that year, to his horror... the current monitor resigned to take up the life of prefectship.. That was when The Curse made its point clear as it continued its strange-hold over the boy for the next year and a half...

As a 15 year old... the chosen one decided to fight back.. and with a little help from his class teacher .. Their efforts made him safe for a while.. the curse though had plans of its own.. unable to struggle completely free he was appointed yet again as the Assistant for half the year before taking up the monitor post the following year...

the distraught young man of 16... was at wits end and decided to finally use the double-edged sword he had been saving... the one which had served monitors before him well... He decided to be..... *gasps* a PREFECT!!! What had driven this young man to such drastic measures that he had purposefully (escaping the curse) became a prefect? Rumors had it that he was worried of the extent of the curse's power as it started to manifest itself in the lives of his siblings..

However, all good things come to an end. Successful as it seemed, the curse merely remained dormant until the opportune moment... Unprotected by the obligations of prefectship, he was again at the mercy of the curse as it showed its ugly face once again in the boy's lower 6 life... against all odds ( the boy missed orientation week) the curse bound him for another year... ( more like half a year but i swear it felt like one )

When finally the boy had resigned to the fact... When he had finally decided it was pointless to ask why... he suddenly found himself free in UPPER 6!! (though as treasurer) What a miracle!! Clearly elated, the boy looks forward to spending his last year in school CURSELESS though he does mourn the pitiful replacements who seem like saviours to him...

Note: This is no work of fiction.

Trying to stop time

2008-12-27T06:11:00.000-08:00

It has been somewhat a tradition for my extended family to gather back in the place we all call home around this time of the year. And gosh, how i awaited times like these... But as i look back on these few years.. i realize how much times have changed. They used to come back the moment the school holidays start... but recently.. maybe only a week before Christmas..

Oh how i remember playing around the almost limitless confines of my gradma's house.. though the "playing" has progressed from ice and water to football to PS1 or even cards... Sadly though.. we seem to be skipping the whole "playing" part these days.. it seems as though we are getting too old.. What seemed like pretty parallel lives diverge and drift further as we find our own ways in life..

Much to the contrary, our relationships never seem to grow distant.. It has come to the point where we are so comfortable with each other that we just click no matter how much time stands between our meetings.. We practically grew up together.. and that's something i'm so thankful about..

I'm scared. Scared to think that someday we might not be able to meet up again.. scared to find that someday our paths will take us so far that they may never intersect again.. Scared.. to lose this gift... At this point of time, it feels like i'm on a ride that i never want to end..

Well, i think we would all go through a point in time like this.. I just felt like posting what i was feeling at the moment...

Etched in my memories... Christmas 2008

Defying Inertia

2008-12-06T03:49:00.000-08:00

It has been some time since i last blogged and though I'm trying to blog as often as i can, i can never get over this blogger's inertia... (a more scientific term for laziness)

Inertia : the tendency to resist a change in motion

Yup.. just can't seem to get myself to blog... Its like a disease.. But anyway, here I am.. trying to keep my posts regular... So what's new i hear u ask.. well this holidays I've been pretty lazy ( i know its not new but just play along ok? ) .. haven't touched any of my books since that fateful Friday... On the bright side though, i haven't been a complete slob bumming around as well... i just came back from Young Writer's Camp!!!

Honestly, i really had a good time there. It was really something new and i don't regret going at all. Hmmm.. when u picture a writer's camp, what do you envision?? A camp full of bespectacled kids ranting about the latest books around?? Well i took it a step further - bepectacled, ranting, latest books, but most of all... playing lotsa word games (scrabble anyone??no? how about boggle? ) !!

But gosh... was I way off target.. they were just really cool guys who were just passionate about writing.... And in place of word games we actually simulated publishing our very own newspaper!! A whole new peek into journalism!! Well it was really cool to meet all these people who view writing like you do.. and our OWN NEWSPAPER??!! wow.. my group's paper was called The Toiletpaper!!

yup, proud toiletpaperian!! it was a totally new thing and i even got to interview this security guard nearby and who knew he had such a good story to tell!! But if i had to pick one thing that i loved the most about the camp, i guess it would be the people. They were just cool people.. even the editors and Uncle John the housemaster of Harvest Haven...

One of the best parts of the camp apart from the trip to Gua kandu ( you can read about that in arnan's blog The Next Chapter though the link doesn't really work) was the Writer's Slam... What on earth is that??!! that was my reaction too... Well, it was basically a time where we could just go up and read any piece of work wev'e written and the rest of us would give comments...
Kinda the ultimate torture for all writers out there huh? But i guess in a cool community like we have it was more of an encouragement.. Though i didnt go up, it was really cool to just listen to these people... 14 year olds at levels i'm not even close to... it can be intimidating.. but i guess to me i feel more inspired to write like these guys do...

Anyway.. to avoid writing "wordy" posts.. ive decided to end this post shortly..
Just some things to keep u looking at my post!! Try counting the number of times i said 'cool' and post it in my chatbox.. yea it was on purpose.. not really my style to repeat words but i noticed a trend while i was typing and instead of cracking my head for synonyms i tried this instead... yay!!

To end... this is just some of the taglines we used for our Toiletpaper Paper!!

Cheap yet Indispensible
News today, Used tomorrow
We get dirty but we get the job done

Some other suggestions

Swish and Swash
Keep in case you have the urge

Thats all!!

coolkajsebsncoolasoinsdoodoasadoosdhoascooloasjdosjooosojdoocoooa
looolsollcoolcoclcllcccoooclcolcooloclllcooclcoooclcolcocclcolcoclcoolcoolo
cloooclcoocolcocoolloooclocccooclolcolcoollocollccoocoollocoocolcoccoolc

Just to make things interesting.. cool!~!

Massacre!!!

2008-11-24T05:30:00.000-08:00

The atmosphere of the crime scene was suffocating... You could still feel the sticky traces of the heinous crime lingering in the air... Words were not merely enough... Nothing... i mean nothing could describe the horror... How could this have happened?? Who could have done such an unimaginable and detestable act?? Why? WHY??!!

Theories, theories and theories!! That was all the out of sorts self-employed group of investigators could conjure... But theories aren't good enough to calm the raging curiosities when you have such a long list of casualties.... The faces of the victims are still etched in my mind...

.....

Mr green beetle...
Mr small dragonfly...
Mr and Mrs wasp like insect..
Mr cousin-of- wasp like insect..
and sadly.. Mr fly too... All gone.. missing from where they were last seen... most likely..
*gasps* ... EATEN!!!

yup, those are the faces of my beloved bugs... dead they may be... but to me.. they had a life of their own.. *sniff*sniff* Now.. they have left their community of insects in my form 6 collection... And it really is getting a little lonelier...

These murders (I know they're already dead but what else can i classify it =P).. could have been prevented if i had only read the signs of this serial killer... The disappearance of Mr armor like bug and Mr bee like fly who were recent additions to my lil community of insects were warning signs of a catastrophe waiting to happen.. but i didn't let my mind wander that far...
if only i had......

The suspects... Mafia boss... Mr Rogue rat... wanted for food theft and rubbish ransacking amongst others...
Also fitting the profile would be Leonard the lizard and his boys.... after all, this is what they were famous for - insect murders... Investigations are still being carried out at this point though there aren't any clear leads as of yet... If only Miss really-green grasshopper could still talk... she could have been an excellent witness.. despite citing only small nibble marks on her abdomen... being dead proved too much of a hurdle... ( I know.. like duh!!)

As of now.. my community of insects are being kept in a safe house ( more like big plastic container ) despite producing a rather foul odor in there..... as a measure of safekeeping... We are truly at a lost and sadly mourn our missing friends...

WANTED
For those with information on the following suspects please contact me.
10 sen reward for any information about their whereabouts leading to capture.

* The story above was written based on a true story*

Sorry for such a late post... had connection problems with my internet and such... hope u enjoy... sad though....

After a long wait...

2008-11-08T06:16:00.000-08:00

Its been say.. more than a month since my last post over in Lil Green Men.. and well i thought that i should finally update my blog!! ( its about time...)
With a new blog and all.. i'm kinda excited *rubs hands together* After all.. it is my first real post..
Now, to the real thing.... well I've just had my exams and i'm glad to say i did reasonably well!! yay!! *basks in the applause* Actually im pretty satisfied coz i finally managed to get an A for maths though i could have done better if i had avoided some i-wouldn't-be-timothy- if- didn't kinda mistakes... in plain terms.. silly mistakes... but then again.. there wasn't a question that i didn't know how to do.. so that's a good thing rite? Anyway.. PA proved to be tricky.. and i only scraped through by the skin of my gums... But overall.. i'm satisfied!! Ill have to work harder for next year though...

Well, after months of work.. you know what?? My group won the shell-Nst young inventors competition!!! weeeeee!! That was kinda cool.. haha.. it was a great time.. we were staying at Ancasa hotel a "miserable" hotel according to my teammate ( think 4 star).. with buffet serving every night!! Gosh you should have seen the cakes.... anyway it was a good experience not because we won.. but because even i was convinced....i have to admit.. i started off as a sceptic.. but now.. i'm a total believer!! The solar cooker works!!! the perfect, portable, low-cost cooker made from discarded materials!!( yup, u guessed right.. that was from my script) ...neways.. dont wanna bore u with this.. you can read it in tuesdays NST paper (4 nov 08) .. cheh.. sounds so perasan.. if you skim through the papers you will come across my picture.. i looked retarded.. as always... on second thought .. don't skim through it...

Anyway.. i just finished my MUET exam this afternoon... I don't expect a 6.. but i'm satisfied i guess.. after it was all over, i had to wait about an hour more for my dad... he was invigilating elsewhere.. hmmmm.. somehow i decided to kill my time by trying to catch some bugs in school for my bio project...i don't know how but i ended up wandering around like a lost puppy... luckily though i saw these two gorgeous butterflies fluttering near the library... I was on a mission.. equipped (or shall i say ill-equipped) with a few platic bags and err.. a makeshift net... (think plastic bag mounted on a twig) i set off.. swinging wildly with my plastic bags i hoped i'd get lucky... unfortunately... many people.. "happened" to pass by.. and i ended up looking like a fool.. ( just great) ( it looks pretty ridiculous) .. so i just gritted my teeth through all the humiliation thinking that if i persevere i might .. just might catch one... and i'll be the one laughing at the end of the day... and you know what... after all my troubles... after all the sniggers i heard... i FINALLY.............

gave up..... yup u read right... no fairy tale this time... i managed to touch the butterflies a few times until they decided it was too dangerous to stay there anymore.. so they just flew higher...
i could have sworn they were mocking me... catch me if u can they seemed to say....

Oh well.. i did manage to catch a small bumblebee (fascinating)!! Life goes on...

Born Again!!!!

2008-11-08T05:58:00.000-08:00

Gone with the old .. and in with the new...
After 9 posts and 38 comments...
I have finally decided to transfer my blog from friendster to blogspot...
I already miss my old one but anyway.. From Breadcrumbs to Lil Green man..
Now i give you... *drum roll* .. Life as I see it!!

Hope to have a happy time blogging.. (at least regularly)
For those who like to reminisce ... http://timothykwan.blog.friendster.com/
Until next time...